Well, when you were a child, a birthday is the day that you really waiting for. A gift, a greeting, and any special treat. Most people will happy to get special attention from their friends and family. It makes you feel like you are worth.
When you were a teenager, the euphoria still big. The special attention from greeting or gift still makes you wait for your birthday.
When you more mature, sometimes, a birthday isn't the day that you are waiting for. When you realized that you're not young anymore. When so many responsible you must take. When you realized you're not doing anything yet into your life. And when that time is coming, a gift isn't a thing you really want. Maybe, you still want, but not really. Peaceful of mind be the first thing you want when you get mature.
So, yes. Today, I'm turning 24. It feels like................. yesterday and the day before yesterday. It feels like 23, 22, 21 but older. Just okay. Nothing special, Like my friend said, "Nothing's gonna change much if you don't change".
Nevertheless, I thank God for every single moment that happened in my life. Thanks for the promises that he always keep for me even I didn't do the same. Thanks for His great blessing from me. Thank for accompany me whenever I feel sad, down, alone, and lonely. Thanks for never disappoint me while I always disappoint him.
So, what I really want from this birthday? Not much (I hope this isn't too much), just be a better person who knows the purposes of life. Not to be the light and salt to the whole world, but start with my nearest people.
To always keep my promises to Him and not hurt Him anymore. I wish my family always blessed by Him, always loving each other. I hope I can accept whatever He planned even it's not comfort for me, even I don't like it. I hope I can surrounded with people who will always helping me to keep my promises to Him.
And I hope, I can get the indulgence for every mistake that I did.
So, this is my birthday thought. See you next year (?)
When you were a teenager, the euphoria still big. The special attention from greeting or gift still makes you wait for your birthday.
When you more mature, sometimes, a birthday isn't the day that you are waiting for. When you realized that you're not young anymore. When so many responsible you must take. When you realized you're not doing anything yet into your life. And when that time is coming, a gift isn't a thing you really want. Maybe, you still want, but not really. Peaceful of mind be the first thing you want when you get mature.
So, yes. Today, I'm turning 24. It feels like................. yesterday and the day before yesterday. It feels like 23, 22, 21 but older. Just okay. Nothing special, Like my friend said, "Nothing's gonna change much if you don't change".
Nevertheless, I thank God for every single moment that happened in my life. Thanks for the promises that he always keep for me even I didn't do the same. Thanks for His great blessing from me. Thank for accompany me whenever I feel sad, down, alone, and lonely. Thanks for never disappoint me while I always disappoint him.
So, what I really want from this birthday? Not much (I hope this isn't too much), just be a better person who knows the purposes of life. Not to be the light and salt to the whole world, but start with my nearest people.
To always keep my promises to Him and not hurt Him anymore. I wish my family always blessed by Him, always loving each other. I hope I can accept whatever He planned even it's not comfort for me, even I don't like it. I hope I can surrounded with people who will always helping me to keep my promises to Him.
And I hope, I can get the indulgence for every mistake that I did.
So, this is my birthday thought. See you next year (?)